I'm reaching way back now. This was written in the fall of my sophomore year in college. I had just had a really short relationship with a woman, and was in mourning over that, but also angry that she'd rather party than be with a more sober person. There was a mess of emotions, and they all came out here. I don't make it a habit to go back and edit how I felt in the past, or else I'd clean this one up a bit. Still, I do like the mess of emotions here a bit. It's honest. Everyone feels a mess of emotions after breakups, don't they?
My memories
Up in the clouds
You’ll always shine in my eyes
But for now
I’ll leave you alone
Leave you to your cigarettes
Beer and hangovers
And I’ll wonder “what if”
When I’m bored
What a thing to do
What a risk to take
So far to fall
And yet, I’ve landed on my feet
No guilt
No hard feelings
No worry
And when I look back—
And I will—
I’ll smile
And when you look back—
If you do—
Remember the laughter
Not the tears
Remember the tender moments
Not the harshness
And may we both find our separate happinesses
written by t. michael pender 11/10/85
©1985 T. Michael Pender. All rights reserved.
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